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Walnut Heart

Like a walnut, my heart's sealed shut
No one but I can crack it open
But I am always stuck in a rut
Desperately tired of hoping

For a decade, my muscles have been tense
My poor body and mind constricted
Like a snake, looking into my soul, intense
My own heart's gotten me conflicted

So I self-medicate with ramen noodles and wine
And push the uncomfortable thoughts deep down
But there's so much it can bear, this heart of mine
And not enough noise for the bad thoughts to drown

There is no running from your soul
There is no solice in denial
Sooner or later you have to take control
So that you're ready to walk down the aisle

Yes, walnuts are tough to crack
But with love and patience it can be done
When you get there, don't look back
Know that you have won

Yes, healing hurts, my heart's an open sore
Admitting it is hard to do
But now my heart's an open door
'Cause you love me, and I love you, too



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