Olga's Poetry & Thoughts

Growing up is realizing that Everyone and everything is full of sh** You smile but you really want to quit This world of Netflix, movies, sex, fame Everyone listens to the same music Everyone is the same Growing up is knowing Life isn't just, it's the complete opposite of We get where we get because of the people we know Not due to our talents, & our beauty died long ago It's a slog, a daily grind The only time I see the sunshine Is when it streams from the window in the room Will I be working here 'til I'm in the tomb? Growing up is... terrifying But grown ups aren't afraid of dying So we eat, cry, drive, and pray Day by day by fateful day Make this acrid fear go away In my mind is where I want to stay Where the skies are forever grey

What is it, that you want out of life? Have a job, have a husband, a wife? You want everyone to know your name? Will you deal with depression that comes with the fame? Will you deal with your parents when they get old? Will you be able to breathe when your fingers get cold? It's a cruel world, they say, this is true We're floating on jetsam without having a clue It's a cruel world filled with killing and pain With injustice and horrors that we shun in vain I want to do something, I don't want to sit still I want to fill something that cannot be filled I want to do everything and it overwhelms me so much That I get soft and decrepit to the touch 'Cause another part of me wants to chill and just float Hoping that another person will steer the boat Floating, floating, not an island in sight Floating and weeping deep in the night

We are disconnected stars; artificial constellations A mind set, a fluke, a trick of the imagination We are lines connecting but never intersecting We do what's expected but are never expecting We are tied to each other one day, severed the next We are mere pawns, but think we are blessed Fingers in each other's palms, we are whole Eyes connected, we make love soul to soul A warm word, a kind slip of the tongue A kiss, a relief, a reminder that we are still young But the moment we part, an ocean divides us And a mystical force in the universe guides us The moment that our lines disconnect The moment that our souls don't reflect Is the moment we flee from each other, and fast Lightyears apart, we say the past is the past All the faces I've seen, touched, caressed All the hearts that I've cried to, lied to and undressed All the stars that I've met that produced something new A beautiful constellation in the sky, a dark blue All the friendshi...

Love: How that word slides off the tongue, Like a licorice serpent rolling along. Disheartening prune ladies, intriguing the young, Bewildering the brave and the strong. We all seek to find it, though it might not exist, We dig in trenches with leeches. We journey along from the moment we’re kissed, Striving for lips that taste of peaches. The man next door has found true love with his cats, He dresses them in ties and tuxedos. He pours them tea and sits cross-legged eating rats, While they feast on mice stuffed burritos. Multiple loves belong to little Dee down the street, She invites boys to her orange juice stand. The nectar of her voice and her fingers so sweet, The boys leave with their hearts in their hands. Mrs. Prunella has wrinkles in which teardrops settle, She has not a mirror in her home. At times she purposely forgets to turn off the kettle, So the fireman can save her from being alone. The Mulroneys have been married for twenty odd years, And th...

At times my heart is so wildly lonesome Desperate for a white dove to find… Black blood oozing from pores of despair For my love has been nothing but declined Even marmosets’ hearts beat for their pair Yet my pulse is calmer than a sloth’s This pathway ends at a garden so divine… But I surrender and brush all certainty off So I live day by day, this mournful mouse that I am Grey and wavering- I fade into the dark Spying on smiling faces in unison… I care more about cheese bits than lovely remarks Why bother lifting a finger when I know I will fail When I am certain what can go wrong, certainly will Twenty years from now, I won’t mind being alone I will live in an astounding house atop of a hill Incapability of romance, of faith, and of trust I am truly handicapped in these fields of devotion Risks are not things that I accept with great pride No, I avoid all things that may hurt my emotion Unfortunately, a cat does not make a sufficient life partner And neithe...

I am feeling a little bit lonely right now, and I can't explain why... Oh yes, because my mom is out and it is just me and my cat in my apartment right now, just like every other evening. I try to get used to it, but I just can't. Being on my own for so many hours a day is becoming unbearable. Other people have families, big families, their grandma and grandpa whom they can visit, a mom and dad, siblings... How is this fair? Why am I in such isolation? Bloodstream flaring for someone to be with, but habit holding me back... Myself and I, we mingle with each other We foster ourselves and help each other smile We saunter through parks, watch the telly Then relax, and dream for a while Myself and I, we spend late weekday evenings At home, tackling homework, until we are done Mom is out at her boyfriend's place Myself and I have to discover ways to have fun We read a book, we blog, we chat We fake that we are ordinary teens When in reality, all we have is dinner, ...