61. If Only, If Only, If Only

If only, if only, if only...
What shy words of faulty wisdom and pity
I would have, could have, should have...
Phrases plainly mendacious; not witty

If only there were a device to make time turn on itself
If only I could mend my mistakes before they appeared
If only my eyes were green instead of blue
If only I could have faced all that I have feared

If only love was but a fragment of one's mind
If only God was but a mythical being
If only poverty could perish in guilt
If only I could watch the world falling apart without seeing

If only everyone could just leave me in peace
If only I could sit here and do nothing at all
If only life were just a tad less complicated
If only an angel would hint to me before I would fall

If only things were the opposite of what they are now
If only I were able to polish all of life's imperfections
If only high school would just end tomorrow
If only I would never have to suffer pain and rejection

If only I accepted everything the way it is
If only I appreciated all that I possess
If only my heart were a little more open
If only I could free myself out of this mess

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Happiness is Pink Jellybeans

Happiness is jumping in a pool of pink jellybeans Feeling the cool candy on my skin Happiness is enjoying the pleasures of life Without worrying about confessing my sins Whoever said that we are gluttons For biting juicy pears on the beach Must never have felt the sand in their toes They must have placed their own soul out of reach And what about greed? It's not all that bad To bury a pile of chestnuts for the spring All animals do it, so why shouldn't we? If it's greedy to love yourself, let it be Lust is the one that makes pastors blush Yet it's one of the greatest joys in the body A kiss and a dance, laughter and romance Why did we ever label this happiness as naughty? Have you ever seen a cat sad when it naps? It is okay to sometimes be lazy The body needs rest as does the mind Or the world will set fire from the crazy If happiness is a sin, then let me smile in hell Looking up at the do-gooders above For to live is to err, to cry, and to sing Happiness is pink jell...

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We Pretend

We pretend that we'll live forever That tomorrow will bring something better We pretend we're not made of stars As we roam the streets and bars We pretend we'll never die That our kids won't ever cry Over the loss that is our end Every student, teacher, friend Everyone we've ever known Has a constellation they call home When the moon comes out at night I look to them to see the light To all those who did pretend That their story would never end But on some nights, breezy and clear I see the stars and they feel near I can grasp one and hold it in my hand As it takes me to another land We pretend this earth is all there is to see Yet the stars and crickets have spoken to me We pretend we'll never die Because we truly won't To someone's eye

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